If anything this chapter in my journey has taught me is patience.
When you are dealing with a television production that is traveling across the country, sorting through all of the contestants and products and making so many decisions there is a lot of waiting involved.
And so I did.
After I received my gold ticket in Vancouver I was told I would hear from the show, either way, on the 4th of March.
It is amazing what you can accomplish when you are trying to keep busy and distracted at the same time. It was a very productive 3 weeks. Though I have to say, it has also been very enlightening and I find I am having a hard time putting it all into words.
For whatever reason, I seem to have put certain aspects of my life on hold for about 5 weeks now. The trip to Vancouver was very cathartic and I find myself examining my life.
It is amazing what can happen when you really put yourself out there. Really out there.
The hours turned to days, days into weeks. Always aware of the Tweets Kyle was putting out from the Recipe To Riches crew, and a Twitter follower of both Dana and Tony the excitement was there, simmering just below the surface. I checked and double checked my paperwork from Vancouver. Going over the possible dates of the trip to Toronto if I was lucky enough to get that far.
The weekend of the 4th rolled around and time began to drag, like the batteries of a clock in the process of dying. Sunday arrived with much antisipation. I would literally jump, my heart racing every time the phone rang. Knowing they had the Toronto auditions earlier that day they must have been working in overdrive. I knew if I did hear from them, it would be late in the day. At about 10 that night I thought I would check my email for the hell of it. There was a 1 beside the inbox.
It was an email asking me to fill out some paperwork for a back ground check on behalf of the show.
What did this mean? Am I in? Have they decided? It was midnight in Toronto, no way I would hear anything further tonight.
I filled out the required paperwork, signed what needed signing and was at the post office first thing Monday morning.
When I got home this was in my email.
Did you read #3.
You want to know what is worse then waiting?
Getting word you have indeed moved to the next level ………….. and can’t tell a soul.
This time no date was given as to when I would get final word. The ultimate exercise in patience. I quickly threw myself into a few very time consuming projects. I work very well under pressure so I took advantage of the nervous energy.
I was so close I could taste it. Feel it. I spent many hours visualizing myself in Toronto. I could really do this. Truly the first time I went for something huge for myself. Digging deep and finding my courage.
Putting it all out there.
Could you imagine the possibililty?
To have a once in a life time opportunity to compete to get a product I created into stores across the country. To represent a city I have grown to love on a scale such as this would be amazing.
Becoming a slave to the phone it became an extension of myself. One more call. That is it. Just one.
And it came, while I was in the shower, of course.
I quickly jumped out and answered it. I have looked at the phone number a 100 times so I knew it was them.
Dripping wet, wrapped in a towel in my newly painted bathroom……my journey came to an end.
This time it was Yetta calling and as she put it, the news isn’t good. I was as close as one could get. Top 5 in Canada is pretty cool! She did invite me back to try for season 3. And mentioned that they did pop in and read my blog. Which was pretty neat to hear. Though it didn’t lighten the blow.
I stepped back into the shower, let the hot water drift over me. The tears didn’t come right away. I think I was numb. I have since made up for that in the day that followed. And to be honest, writing this has been tremendously tough.
The disappointment is indeed huge.
Would I do it all again? Absolutely. It has been an amazing journey. I am changed. I am excited! Definitely at a crossroad in my life. Trying to figure out where do I go from here? I feel like something big still needs to happen, like there are things I need to do.
I want to thank everyone who has followed along these past few weeks. Your support has been overwhelming and so very much appreciated.
I am sorry it ended here and not in Toronto.
Is season 3 a possiblilty? Absolutely.
I know I can still win this thing. It is just a matter of timing……….
Thanks again everyone!
Keep it real.